Friday, December 28, 2007

Uneasy Relief

I wrote this almost word for word in a comment return, but: I took the medicine I've been out of and curled up in a ball, under a dirty blanket next to my cat for several hours and just felt slowly flooded with relief. Anyone who does not believe pharmaceuticals are medicine for some people, has no idea. It doesn't mean that the rest isn't all in there too - the life stuff, or that that isn't what brings it on - but depression like that is paralyzing physical illness. Past tragedies and present life experiences are still here to deal with for me now. Now that I can.

3 comments:

Merelyme said...

whew...good. this is good. i know...it sucks to know that so much of depression is beyond our control...so damn biological. but it is...just like having any other kind of disease. anyways...i am really happy you found relief.

Sarah said...

Blessed be the peace-makers. Blessed be the Wellbutrin-makers that bring peace in depression's paralyzing physical illness. Peace to you.

whimsicalnbrainpan said...

I'm glad you feel that you can.

It can get so damn overwhelming sometimes can't it.