Thursday, May 15, 2008

Sunday, March 23, 2008

Happy Easter

Thank you all so much for all of your comments.

I'm checked out today from my residential treatment facility with laptop to my apartment till 3:00.  I keep my laptop hidden at the house (residence), and need to find a cafe close but not too close, to the house where I can use the computer both to reconnect here, and also to study and research for the HIV services planning council I am still managing the process of getting elected to--talking people into changing involuntary hospital commitments to voluntary status... in order to not miss mandatory meetings and trainings--by making the case that my two-year self commitment to this goal is an essential part of of my stabilization (survival), too, despite--or maybe in part because of--its intensity.  Once I can formally inducted I can have excused absences.  I am not sure either that considering my stability hour to hour I wouldn't be better off in the hospital right now than The House, but I can't afford to lose my freedom till the meeting the Monday after this. 

I am very sensitive to my surroundings and it has been hard to find a place where I can concentrate to work toward getting/catching up to speed.  (Including this apartment.)  I feel extremely disoriented.

There is so much to write about, and I miss you all and this process, but I need this rare time alone with my cat at the moment to work on re-bonding with her.  When I came over here yesterday, I had to leave because she wouldn't come out of the closet with me here. My cat-sitter will be back here at 2:00 to pick us up, return me, and take Sophia in her cage back up to Santa Rosa to his place.  

There is so much to write about.  (My magazine article is out, and I'm curious about any response to it next month).  

I am trying extremely hard but not very smoothly to keep up and comply with what other people decide what is best for me, too.

Thanks again for checking in on me. I hope you all are doing well.

I look forward to visiting your blogs soon.


Tuesday, February 19, 2008

Coming back soon.

Unable to post so far, but outlook is improving for access. Perhaps in a few days. Thank you all so much for continuing to visit and for your thoughts. It means so much.

Tuesday, February 12, 2008

Update for Friends of +PHc

Posted by Catsitter: Visited with +PHc on Monday. She moved from San Francisco General Hospital on Saturday to a 90-day residential treatment program located in a large Victorian house not far from Golden Gate Park. There is no access to a computer in the house and for the first seven days she will not be able to leave the house other than for doctors' appointments. Next week, she hopes to be able to visit a nearby library and have access to a computer. This is a very difficult time. She is getting your messages and is looking forward to being back in touch with you all as soon as she can. She truly misses being in touch with you directly. Sophia is doing fine but misses her very much. Thanks for your thoughts and prayers!

Monday, February 11, 2008

Please keep checking in.

Need and appreciate your comments. May be able to post directly this weekend.

Residential treatment so far difficult. No solitude. Constant accompaniment. Have to ask permissions for utensils. Strong need to get out and move. . . walk far. . .

Forced socialization must be like solitary confinement to others.

Wednesday, February 6, 2008

Thank you.

Your responses mean a lot to me. I should be discharged soon. I am not supposed to be alone so while on a waiting list for a residential program I will be probably staying with generous catsitter and will have access to a computer again. Whatever the treatment program is, they are sending representatives tomorrow for an interview. I don’t know if I will have computer access there but I would be away from my cat for probably 2 months.

Monday, February 4, 2008


The 5150 expired this afternoon. They could have reinstated the 5150 but offered voluntary commitment instead but highly recommended a couple of more days. Earned patio privileges but will not be earning laptop privileges. Thanks again for your thoughts and hope you are all doing well.