I'm checked out today from my residential treatment facility with laptop to my apartment till 3:00. I keep my laptop hidden at the house (residence), and need to find a cafe close but not too close, to the house where I can use the computer both to reconnect here, and also to study and research for the HIV services planning council I am still managing the process of getting elected to--talking people into changing involuntary hospital commitments to voluntary status... in order to not miss mandatory meetings and trainings--by making the case that my two-year self commitment to this goal is an essential part of of my stabilization (survival), too, despite--or maybe in part because of--its intensity. Once I can formally inducted I can have excused absences. I am not sure either that considering my stability hour to hour I wouldn't be better off in the hospital right now than The House, but I can't afford to lose my freedom till the meeting the Monday after this.
I am very sensitive to my surroundings and it has been hard to find a place where I can concentrate to work toward getting/catching up to speed. (Including this apartment.) I feel extremely disoriented.
There is so much to write about, and I miss you all and this process, but I need this rare time alone with my cat at the moment to work on re-bonding with her. When I came over here yesterday, I had to leave because she wouldn't come out of the closet with me here. My cat-sitter will be back here at 2:00 to pick us up, return me, and take Sophia in her cage back up to Santa Rosa to his place.
There is so much to write about. (My magazine article is out, and I'm curious about any response to it next month).
I am trying extremely hard but not very smoothly to keep up and comply with what other people decide what is best for me, too.
Thanks again for checking in on me. I hope you all are doing well.
I look forward to visiting your blogs soon.