Sunday, March 23, 2008

Happy Easter

Thank you all so much for all of your comments.

I'm checked out today from my residential treatment facility with laptop to my apartment till 3:00.  I keep my laptop hidden at the house (residence), and need to find a cafe close but not too close, to the house where I can use the computer both to reconnect here, and also to study and research for the HIV services planning council I am still managing the process of getting elected to--talking people into changing involuntary hospital commitments to voluntary status... in order to not miss mandatory meetings and trainings--by making the case that my two-year self commitment to this goal is an essential part of of my stabilization (survival), too, despite--or maybe in part because of--its intensity.  Once I can formally inducted I can have excused absences.  I am not sure either that considering my stability hour to hour I wouldn't be better off in the hospital right now than The House, but I can't afford to lose my freedom till the meeting the Monday after this. 

I am very sensitive to my surroundings and it has been hard to find a place where I can concentrate to work toward getting/catching up to speed.  (Including this apartment.)  I feel extremely disoriented.

There is so much to write about, and I miss you all and this process, but I need this rare time alone with my cat at the moment to work on re-bonding with her.  When I came over here yesterday, I had to leave because she wouldn't come out of the closet with me here. My cat-sitter will be back here at 2:00 to pick us up, return me, and take Sophia in her cage back up to Santa Rosa to his place.  

There is so much to write about.  (My magazine article is out, and I'm curious about any response to it next month).  

I am trying extremely hard but not very smoothly to keep up and comply with what other people decide what is best for me, too.

Thanks again for checking in on me. I hope you all are doing well.

I look forward to visiting your blogs soon.

Love.

14 comments:

laughingwolf said...

very good to hear from you, hon...

take all the time you need to feel better, we're not going anywhere

Jim said...

Good to see you post again. I am glad you are back and I will be waiting for your updates.

Jim

tati said...

hello!
just wanted to stop by. we're in austin this week, decompressing.
hope the place you are in is a benefit.
love to you

Dream Writer said...

Welcome back and glad to hear that you are well:)

about jenji said...

do what you need to do, we'll still be here.


best wishes for you and Sophia,
jenji

Sarah said...

It's wonderful to see an update on your blog! I'll be interested to hear responses to the POZ article too. The photo and the article are very fine. The whole issue is admirable,with the information on Native American issues and truckers too. Love.

Polar Bear said...

It's good to hear from you again.

Merelyme said...

wow! you are back for a bit? i am so sorry i missed this post. i have been sick for awhile. i think about you all the time...wondering how you are doing. you sound good. write as you are able.

Sarah said...

Hope the care council process is going well. I miss hearing from you. Love.

Aero Broken said...

Best Wishes, Take your time.

Peace, Aero

Merelyme said...

hello my friend...i do hope you are doing well and are happy. i have been sick lately and i am sorry for not visiting as much.

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austin said...

I have thought about you so much. It's so good to see your typing. :-)

Austin

Anonymous said...

Hey sweetie,
This is your sister-cousin who never picks up a phone. I have to apologize for being such a hermit! I'd love to talk to you, though. I got your message. I'm due to give birth to little Basketball McCrady in less than 2 weeks. I can't believe it's happening, and I won't believe it until it happens. Meanwhile, I'm still working, and just tired around the clock. I promise I will call you soon. I love you dearly. Love, cuz